What is the inner makeup of a person who feels the urgent need to serve his spiritual master? When Hans Vater met Maharishi Mahesh Yogi in person, he soon was so attracted to his charisma that he did everything he could to follow him and be close to him. With relentless openness he describes his spiritual ups and downs from his time with Maharishi, how a very personal relationship with him developed, how he climbed up the stepladder to be Maharishis personal secretary and finally said farewell lovingly, so that he felt free to go his own way again.