This is a collection of poetry and prose about being and living in complete survival mode. About the experiences of various rises and falls with love, abuse, violence, loss, all with complete femininity. These poems are in some way healing myself through trauma. Hopefully, this book leaves you with emotions, feelings, and strength. There are secret messages behind my words, and complex things to drivel through for you to understand. We all have been there; beautiful words and a hopeless heart have filled these pages for you.